Is it bed time yet?

I’m struggling today.

A few weeks ago, I went back into the working life. Nothing exciting. 20 hours a week in a retail shop. I am also going to college once a week, working on assignments, volunteering online and trying to find the time to rest.

Why, why, why am I doing all this?

Simple reasons. I need to work for money. I’m going to college to train to be a counsellor. I enjoy volunteering. All together? I’m exhausted. My brain is so foggy but I’m still trying.

All in all, I’m coping well. I’m moving forward in my treatment, which I’ll tell you about another time.

On the other side, I’m bored and already fed up of working. Dealing with the general public at Christmas time? Man, many people do NOT spread the Christmas cheer to the people serving them in the shop, no matter how chipper I am – and I HATE being chipper while at work. My legs ache, I’m tired and I just found out I’m working ALL OF CHRISTMAS. YA CAN AT LEAST BE NICE TO ME.

If anyone is reading this, I hope your Christmas is heading in the right direction. I hope you spread the kindness and have kindness spread to you.

Did any of this make sense? I dunno. I have some brain fog.

Brain fog is a symptom of ME. It makes your brain feel all “uhhh…”, like theres a cloud in your head. Someone could tell you 1+1=2 but you can’t believe or process it. Don’t even ask someone with brain fog to make a decision. It’s impossible.